Thursday, January 27, 2011

WIP Wednesday(ish): A Barrier of Bullshit

First things first, my actual work in progress is still the same, outlining and writing for my untitled MMA / cosmic horror project. Because we have already covered that one, I would like to talk about my other major work in progress.

For as long as I can remember, I have talked my way out of everything. I've sold snow to Eskimos; convinced teachers, parents, advisers, friends and enemies, of my objectives with the value of my words. It's a skill that has saved me in countless arguments and debates, but it has also given me a boatload of bad habits.I have, at times, been an arrogant bastard. Sometimes it could be called cocky, bullheaded, and occasionally, prickish. As bad as these traits are, their damage is minor compared to the next.

Being able to schmooze my way out of problems and blame has made me lazy. Writing isn't a career where this is acceptable. I have to wake up to accountability. I have to accept that I can't weasel my way out of writing and move forward in my career. Eventually the excuses will run dry, and I will have to accept the results of this behavior.

In the context of this post, I would say that eliminating the self defeating aspects of myself is my most important work in progress. I've come a long way in a year, but I must still be mindful of wasted time and talent. I'm slowly phasing the lethargy from my life, but even the lateness this blog post is indicative of its power over me.

In a few moments, I will be sprinting into the 24th year of my existence. I'm working to continue making progress, and to keep growing as a writer and a person. The means to eliminate laziness aren't out of reach, and I hope with the wisdom and patience of age, that I will more clearly see where my actions will take me.

Now, if you would all excuse me, I need to find a cone shaped hat and some cake.

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